Goodbye 2011

Highlights of 2011
[x] Doing well my second semester
[x] Went to Disneyland twice w/ babe
[x] Turned 19 years old !
[x] May 12, 2011 Christopher Oka asked me to be his girlfriend
[x] Got a job on campus for the Admission Office
[x] Passed Chem 02 for summer
[x] Living w/ awesome suitemates : Babes, Ashley, Kim and Abbi
[x] Actually ranking for Friendship Games --> Pirate theme !
[x] Winterball w/ the boyfriend
[x] San Francisco Adventure
[x] Went to Knotts
[x] Watched Cirque de Soleil
[x] Cousin Hangouts
[x] PAA & Merced Family Parties & Hangouts
[x] Closer friendships & stronger bonds
[x] More Cousin Hangouts


Hello 2012 !! (:

5 months

Can you believe it?! My babe and I are finally making it into our 5 month anniversary ! (:
Of course like most couples, we had MANY MANY bumps along the road, but we still made it this far.
It feels good to know that we're still trying our best to make things work. I've been extremely happy with what has happened between us so far and I just hope that it continues on here on out.

Happy 5 months baby. I love you.

Text Messages Put Together To Remind Me Of How Much He Really Loves Me.
Him: "I love you more than life itself. I miss my Babeski. It was great to see you! It felt like forever since the last time I've seen your face. I miss you so much and I can't wait to have you here with me. I LOVE YOU TOO ! I miss my best/girl friend <3. I love you form the bottom of my heart all the way to the top of it! Sorry for giving you a rough day arguing over nonsense things. But I thought it was cute :) "

"Happy Four Month Anniversary Babe! I'm happy I got to spend most of the day with you! I know we never have all the time in the world to get together, but when we do I love it... Like a love song BabyBABY! ;) <3 Goodnight best friend who I'm in love with oh so much<3 Sweet dreams and I'll see you soon. I love you <3 5/12/2011:) :) <3 <3"

"Good night night Babe! I'm glad I got to spend the first 30 minutes of our three month anniversary together though we're so far apart<3 Thank you for blessing me with all your love and support the past three months and even longer. You're one of the best things that's ever happened to me and I don't want to let you go. I love Sweetie and I love you from the bottom of my heart. I love you."

"Babe trust me, almost a year knowing you and I still can't figure oyu out. You're still a mystery to me ;) I love you!"

"If I don't live on campus, I promise I'll try everything I can to be with you everyday. I promise Sweetheart."

May 12, 2011

It wasn't the greatest way he asked me but hearing it from him makes it even more special than I can have ever imagined.

May 12, 2011 marks the day that Chris and I are official (:<3 I'm so happy having him in my life because he really shaped me in becoming a better person and has raised my standards on what a relationship should be like. He never gives up on me and always knows how to change for the better. I love him so much and I can't wait for more journeys and adventures with him.

"I love you<3 Goodnight my love"

"Awww I like that picture! I love you too! Now and forever. No one else can change how I feel about you<3"

"Goodnight Babe :) Of course. I'll always be here for you. I love you so much. I'm so excited for us. You got to trust me babe. I'm with you now to be with you FOREVER. <3 Goodnight my Love. Sweet dreams:)"

"I miss you LOVE"

"Hey babe. Sorry about yesterday. I promise to try harder in the future. I really love you and you're right that I do need to show it. Well I'll definitely text you when I leave so I'll talk to you soon. Oh man I lost my spot on the couch, my pillow, and my blanket. But its okay. I have rather talk to you than sleep. But yeah goodnight babe. Me and pineapple love you and Okabear oh so much<3"

"Hey babe ;) Glad we got to talk and hangout. I'm speechless about everything you told me your parents said. I can't believe it but I do believe you. I love you so much Babeski who's always helping me become a better boyfriend everyday. You're the best and I seriously doubt that anyone can replace you. I love you Babe with all my heart. Goodnight Babe and sleep tight. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight<3 Take care babe and get some rest please. I'll talk to you in the morning<3"

"Hey Babeski<3 I know ts earlier than our typical nights but I should be waking up earlier. I miss you so much and I'm so glad to see your beautiful self through webcam each day. I'm so lucky to have a girlfriend who loves me so much. And I feel like you deserve a lot more and Ill try everything I can to give it to you <3 I can't wit till Saturday to see you too ! You're all I'm really looking forward to this summer. I love you Krystel. And don't forget that 2011 is our year! And the next one after that as well, for forever ! So goodnight babe, and sleep tight. I hope Okabear gives you a great big hug tonight because he's giving you one for me<3 I love you -OkaleyPoopsies"

Second Semester.

Second Semester has finally come to an end, I am very happy with what I was able to accomplish in comparison to my first semester. You don't know how happy I am with how I am progressing with my college life, sure it took some work but it all paid of and I couldn't have done it without you Lord. Praying to you every morning and having you by my side has truly helped me in becoming a better student thus passing all my classes with exceptional grades. I am truly blessed and grateful for all you have done.

My first year of college was a crazy journey from the party and try new things at college stage, to the transition stage and to where I am today. It sure was a crazy rollercoaster with crazy fights, and losing someone you love to having the strength to put in the past and actually fall in love. I am so happy with how things are going that I pray and hope that it will continue as the years and especially this summer comes by. I love you so much Lord and I want to say thank you for blessing me with an amazing family, friends who can help me, and most importantly having a boyfriend who cares about me.

I have truly been blessed and I want to thank you LORD JESUS FOR EVERYTHING<3 I love you with the bottom of my heart, and I am truly sorry for all I have done to offend you. Please forgive me.

:)

<3
"Hey babe. Sorry you have no electricity :( and sorry I'm gonna sleep. But I'm really sleepy. Just know that if you need me I'm just a call away and in two days, I'll just be by your side and I won't be far from you. Let's have a pillow talk Sunday night :) I love you babe so much and I honestly need you in my life to survive. Pinky promise and *kiss*<3 I miss you so much ad I hope these next days go by quick so okabear can see his mommy again :) so I can see my baby again. I'll talk to you tmrw Babe for sure. I really wish I was there right now to be with you by your side :/ But I'll see you soon anways :) Goodnight, sweet dreams and I'll always love you Mariel Krystel V. Llamas <3"

"Thanks for the great talk babe :) I always love talking to you. You're TRULY my best friend and I'm so happy to have you. And that's what I always wanted from you first was to be great friends because I know our relationship as a couple will work out better that way. I can always count on you to be there for me :) and your family means so much to me. I'm so that they feel that way too. I love you and your whole family so much. I've never gotten this close with any other of my friends' families compared to yours. I love you Mariel from the bottom of my heart, and it feels right. So goodnight and sleep well babe and I'll see you very soon<3"

Sping Break

Spring Break ! (:

2nd Semester of College is still rough but I am able to handle it a lot better than before. Grades are still fine but still pushing to keep it up as always and let's just say the way I have chose to live my college life changed drastically as well. Despite the difficulty of hanging out, and being in a room with your ex-best friend, I honestly am enjoying every minute of my college experience even if it does rarely include going out and partying. Yeah, those were fun in the first semester but I found my fun and happiness in just being centered with school and getting closer to people that I haven't been close to before. I never felt more comfortable in being who I am just by myself. My friendship and strong relationship with ate jae and jessica continues to grow every time I am with them. My dating relationship with chris continues to become stronger and stronger since I spend everyday and every minute with him. And my ates and kuyas are still the same old same old although I rarely hang out with them and miss them most of the time. But I love my life, never been so peaceful in awhile and the best part is that I know that I still have my main girls at home here in L.A which leads to my spring break fun ! (:

SPRING BREAK FUN !
Spent my first day home celebrating my birthday ! (: Thanks steph for the donuts and all those who greeted me a happy birthday !(: Then went to SD to see the flower fields, ate lucha libre, go to mass and such. My girls Shalley and Katrina came to visit me and take me out for my birthday in going to cue and yeah we also kidnapped ate melodie ! (: Saw my favorite cousin Martin scared the heck out of me though. Played a lot of what ifff ! (: Best game ever. But mostly spent it with chris since everyone is busy going to school, he kept me company and took great care of me.

Chill Spring Break and it sucks that its almost over. Poop.

My 19th Birthday

My 19th Birthday.

Yay ! I was able to go home and spend my 19th birthday with my family, and two best friends chris and jessica (: Best birthday ever, it was simple yet unforgettable. Went to go look at flowers, ate lucha libre, go to mass and just spend time with the family. All I ever asked/wanted.
Thank you mama, papa, kuya, jason and kriselle for getting the NINJA sweater ! (: I loveeee it.
Thank you chris for playing a whole new world (: one of the most thoughtful gifts ever.

Well, there you have it. I'm nineteen.

2 more days

2 more days and I get to see you again :)

"Hey babe. Thank you for everything you said today. I promise you I will never change. I never want to change from the great guy you see in me because everything you see in me makes me happy. And I'm glad you see things that me or any other girl hasn't notice. Your different in the best way possible and I never would want you in any other way. I know as long as I have you staying the way you are, I'll feel like the luckiest guy on earth because I'll have what I've always been looking for. I feel blessed to be where I am with you and I only hope for it to progress through time. I love you and only babe<3 And that's all I want from you babe and that's all you have ever done for me and I love it. You're the best and there 's no one else I know that can top that. Goodnight babe and sweet dreams. And I love you so much ! Ad yore right, I am crazy. But me being cray means that I love you and that's why I'm a keep being crazy. Because I Love You<3 And there's nothing that can change that ! You're mine babe and please let it always be that way."

I couldn't ask for anything better<3

January 08, 2011

This new year came and I already experienced one of the best days of the new year.

January 08 celebrates the anniversary of my two lovely parents, but it also the day that I heard the first three words from the boy I truly care about so much.

I couldn't ask for a better way of him expressing his feelings for me than the way he did that early early morning. I never felt the way I did when I first heard him say it. I couldn't believe that the person that I have fallen for has also fallen for me. This is truly the start of our new year and I just pray and hope that its going to last a lifetime<3

I couldn't see myself so far with anyone else but him. I love you babe.

His Texts:
"Yeah of course babe :) Anything for you.. Except the 3 day thing because I need you. Lol"

"Okay I'll be waiting babe <3 I love you"

"Hey baby :) Hope choir practice went well. Also hope that you got some sleep last night. Well yeah just want you to know that I still remember almost everything we talked about last night and I'm glad it went the way it did. I love you <3"

"(picture of a rosary) Look what I'm bringing back with me:) I'm serious about what I said last night babe"

"Yeah sorry babe :/ I have to sleep tonight. But yeah I will talk to you tomorrow when I get back home from church. Like I already said, I'm really glad you had a great day today. I just want to try to make the best of every day I have with you. Whether I'm physically there of not, this is soon to be the beginning of our book and I want to see us to be able to look back on the whole book that we both wrote together. No matter what happens babe, you are my one and only and I'm never gonna change that. I'm as positive as I've ever been about that. I promise. I love you babe and you mean the whole universe to me. Goodnight babe and we'll pick up where we left off in the morning. We'll take this one day at a time <3 I love you babe."

"Hey babe! I'm sorry my phone battery got low again I really wish I could stay on all night. I love staying on the phone all night with the girl I love. And I'm glad you woke me up again because I want you to know that I'm always here for you. And it also feels like I'm really sleeping by your side :) And that's all I want to do every night with you, is be there to keep you warm and safe in my arms. I hope your throat feels better and be sure to drink some tea or something in the morning if it still feels bad. I love you babe and don't ever forget that. I'll see you at Disneyland in my dream tonight. I love you babe<3 Call me when you get back home so we can start our day:)
Love,
Babycakes<3"

Him

Every girl always wishes, dreams, and hopes for that perfect ideal guy they can spend the rest of their lives with. "I want a guy who's sensitive, smart, great at singing, respectful, honest, prefers spending time with me most of the time, etc.." Hah, the typical sentence most girls would say but can never find... or what's even worse they would compare that perfect ideal guy or a great friend of theirs to their current boyfriend. Funny how trying to find this certain happiness or love works.

I admit, I have gone through days in settling for someone because I was afraid that was the best I would get and I was afraid that no one else would want me. But one thing I noticed is that I never tried. I've been asking and praying to God to give me such a great guy and the funny thing is that he has, its just now my turn to try. He answered my prayers no doubt, now it was my turn to make use of what He sent me and actually start trying.

And you know even after the rough start I had.. I finally found him.

Now I just hope that its going to last but whatever the road leads us, I know the connection and strong bond we have will never be broken and I promise you that.

His Goodnight Texts always know how to make me smile:

"Hey babe. It was really nice talking as always. I hate being the one to always leave you :/ I swear you can go on forever without any sleep. But yeah excited for OUR year like no other already. Disneyland, your birthday, clubbing, your family and most of all YOU! :) But yeah I miss you a lot and maybe that's why it's so hard to say goodnight and leave you from a great talk. Curse my sleep cycle. Lol but yeah I really miss you babe and I can't wait til these 10 days are over. I care about you so much:) Please try to get some sleep please I don't want you to get sick. Goodnight babe<3"

"You're my baby"

".. But yeah babe, I mean everything I tell you every night. I don't usually open up to anyone as much as I do with you and I'm very happy to know that you're there for me. Just know I'm here for you too and I want you to be able to count on me for anything that's troubling you. You're very special in so many ways and I'm just grateful to be at least your friend. But I'm even more grateful that you gave me the chance to be with you knowing how many times I disappoint you. But I'll try my best to avoid having that happen because you mean way to much to me to see you upset. I just want to see you happy as always. Like I said, as long as you're fine, I'll be fine. So I hope you're fine right now, and I want you to head to sleep as soon as possible. I want you to be healthy as can be. Take care babe and goodnight<3 You're my one and only and I promise you that."

-Christopher E. Oka

Yeah, God sent me a special one. <3>